Last month I gathered with a group of friends and we discussed an article written by Catherine Arveseth, a mother of 5 young children. In it, she talked about how it is so easy to live life in the past and in the future--always troubled about what happened or preparing for what is coming up next. The swirling chaos never seems to halt. That feeling resonated with me and I knew immediately I would regret being stuck in the midst of that chaos someday. I knew I was missing something that I need. For some, finding joy in life comes more easily than others (no matter their role). Finding joy is not a gift I have, but I know that it is a skill I can get better at. Motherhood is the primary role that I have chosen to experience these years of my life through, and I am determined to develop this skill so that I don't have to regret merely surviving the demands and chaos. I want to feel joy and wonder and gratitude at the blessing it is to raise little people and influence their lives. As I considered how I could make a big change to the way I experience life right now, blogging is the answer I have landed on. Having a reason to notice the present makes me happier. I slow down. I take pictures. I smile and laugh when I would normally despair and cry!
I know blogging is no longer the "in" thing that everyone does and I have all sorts of doubts...like...will I fail? While I have decided to keep things public, I have no grand schemes to solicit a large audience. I blog for myself and my family. But the possibility of an audience makes me feel accountable. I have found every excuse for weeks now to not kick things off. I need to update the header, write a summary of 2 years, find cute pictures of everyone and get them downloaded to the right computer, think of something fun to say. But then I realized, this isn't about perfection. So I found 15 minutes of (almost) quiet and that's enough. Ready or not I'm back!